Pastoral Rescue
Thinkers sometimes work ourselves in a quandary that even we don't understand. Usually we can think our way through almost anything, but occasionally we lose our way entirely.

When it comes to whether to beat the streets for another cushy corporate job right away or to spend the time completing a screenplay or two, I have been looping. My husband would probably say "loopy." Anyway, one day I was going to finish my novel and the next day I'd frantically look for a job all day. I was being borderline double-minded (Sorry James.)

I've spent a lot of time reading Piper and Eldredge lately regarding our God-given desires. And of course, I am still haunted by those red mushrooms suggesting I change my path in life. I feel I am too introverted and don't spend enough time with people, but when I do, I'm too exhausted to get the other stuff done. "You can't be a Lone Ranger Christian." "You can't win souls for Jesus when you're alone." I got very confused.

My pastor stopped by today and I asked him when you're an "idea" person like me and could fill up several lifetimes with what I'd like to do, how do you chose? Without hesitation he asked, "What do you love doing?" Without hesitation, I responded, "Writing." And that was it. I'm studying the issue further, but I am beginning to think it goes something like this. God creates us and plants certain desires in our hearts. Accomplishing these desires please Him. Since they're our desires, we ask Him to help us and He gives us "the desires of our hearts."

Anyway, I feel as though the fog has lifted. Expect more writing on pleasing God through fulfilling our deepest desires.